keserabutan melanda..

fikiran bercelaru.. kenapa agaknye ye.. cemburu ke? iri hati kot.. rindu pun ada..kenapa semua perasaan negatif nak lekat kat aku ni.. adeh.. cukup2 la.. serabut nye la..

teringat zaman skolah.. :D

siapa kata zaman skolah tak best tu makna nye die salah masuk skolah la tu.. hehe.. hari ni aku tengok adik-adik aku bersiap untuk balik asrama, asrama yang pernah aku duduk sebelum ni.. teringat masa aku skolah dulu.. macam diorang.. kemas-kemas nak balik asrama.. huh payah betul nak balik masa tu.. rasa macam tak best je.. ye lah kan.. kena tinggal sume kat rumah.. tv, komputer,kucing-kucing... jauh dengan family lg.. hadoi.. tapi tu dulu.. habis skolah je sumpah tak best duk  rumah sorang-sorang.. cuti panjang pulak.. rindu kawan-kawan sume.. rupa-rupa nye, time skolah lah time paling best skali.. lg-lg siapa yg ada pglaman duk asrama.. pape sume ngn kwn.. mkn, study, kne denda, tidur sume sama-sama.. kat mana lah sume kwn-kwn aku skrg ni kan.. ada yg da sampai overseas da.. pape pn smoga kalian sume bahagia skrg ni.. blaja la sungguh-sungguh smpai b'jya.. amin.. : D

why did these happened to me?

it's not right to regret what had happened in our life but i wanna still regret it.. i've make lots of mistakes in my life.. running away is not the right choice.. but can i do so? i feel like i wanna go to a place that no one knows anything about myself.. start a new life.. making new friends.. feel new environments.. we can't back to our past.. if we can, i'm the first one to do so.. i wanna fix my life before.. start appreciating education and enjoy life without making any big problems.. i wanna be an architect since in primary school.. i love to design.. but i don't know why i'm taking different course in university.. argh!! tension pulak tibe2.. =.=''

blog is like a diary?

if the answer is yes, i'll tell everything happened for every single second in my life.. if not, i'll still want to do so.. haha.. okay, i'm starting to talk nonsense.. :D

perjalanan yang masih jauh..

i am now in part 6 of diploma in business management programme in UiTM Jengka.. skrg bru terfikir.. kenapa dari dulu tak nak blajar btul2? kan da rugi.. sepatut nye dari awl lg da fikir pasal mse dpn.. 1 of my members ask me, ''kenapa kau tak belajar sgt tp boleh score? aku ni penat blajar tp markah tak tinggi mcm kau''.. then i said, '' entah la.. aku pn tak tau.. maybe aku faham dalam kelas kot..''.. but because I choose to follow my heart, i've ruined my first two semester.. after the great failure in 2nd sem, i start to repair myself.. i'm start to increase back my pointer.. it was really hard.. but alhamdulillah, i manage to increase it to be better.. now.. for the last sem, i promise myself to get even better result than the past sem.. and i've make some planning for my future.. after i've finished my diploma, i'll learn and take the license for motorcycle and car, then i'll go to work.. after i have prepared myself enough, i'll continue my study for the degree level.. insyaAllah.. :)

tahun baru buku baru azam baru.. :)

lme sgt tak update blog.. mcm2 jugk yg jd.. da dkat 1 tahun lbih rase nye.. skrg dunia pun da makin maju kan.. there is someone that encourage me to start blogging again.. not only to improve my writing but to help myself become better in life.. he is my lecturer in uitm.. even though he is already 60+ years old, he keep updating himself with the technologies in these present days.. so start from today, if there are time and space, i'll keep writing whatever happened in my life, except for my really2 personal matter lah kan.. :)

happy with someone.. :)

emm.. dh lme x update blog ni.. im enjoying relationship with someone lately.. 2 yg x update2 ag.. almost 2 month ktorg couple.. yeah.. bru ag.. anything can happen.. sme de yg d jgka kn atau x.. tp hopefully jodoh ktorg smpai jnjang plamin.. antara rmai2.. die la yg pling sempoi.. ktorg btpuk tmpar, ktuk mngtuk, tp lau dh tlbey msti la say sorry.. his favourite words are 'tupai' n 'donat'.. he is the one who can make me laugh smpai x ckup nfas.. hahahaha.. ble date ngn die, sume tmpt die nk bwk.. almost all beaches in kuantan i dh smpai.. but.. last week, there is someone who try to take him from me.. huh.. =.='' .. slalu sgt jd cmni.. msti de je pmpuan lain yg nk kt bf i.. why la?? he said that she is beautiful, pndai jge dri, working tp die bru 15 years old n mlut nye agk 'kencang' bak kte die.. i know im not working, not as beautiful as her n x brape pndai jge diri but at least im educated la jugk... am i should brebut ngn that girl yg bru 15?? emm.. mybe i should prepare myself if anything happen.. but im afraid 2 lose him.. :( ..  that girl sggup sruh bf i break ngn i smate2 utk couple ngn die.. how dare she ask my beloved 2 do that?? my bf said that dont be too worried.. die msih bley pk waras.. x kn di nk amek future wife yg x de pndidikn n by the way, lau die nk curang x kn die bgtw i.. lg pn die ley jd rimas lau i asyik tye sal that girl je.. then i start pk.. btol jugk.. drpd kecoh2 lbih baik doa byk2 mnx d jauh kn pkara cm 2.. pas 2 bru la ok ckit..:) tp de la isaw jugk..  lastly, no matter what will happen.. i'll not stop missing n loving him.. he is the most amazing part i my life.. :*